Monster's grin

my heart is beating very fast.
i really wonder why?
am i afraid?
am i sick?
am i going crazy?

the 'teacher' knows my problem really i freaking me out.
anything can happen.
they might tell stnerap [pg].
if they were to tell and i really am killing myself.
sorry to say this but i do mean it.

teacher is going to give me a call later in the handphone.
but i had none now.
so the excuse i will give is that.
"my younger cousin accidently dropped it on the floor and the screen just went blank.'
i know it sounds so fake.

today i had to wear jacket out.
dont want mum to see the bandage on my wrist.
it so warm today but i had no choice.
i had to suffer to not get it notice.
i really dont know what to do.

yea, going out to geylang to take my clothe.
going out with thick eyelinear, black clothe, black sweater and black shoes.
so that if i see anyone outside, they wont notice me.
i hope so.
argh.

my blog turned so emotional suddenly.
it is supposed to be an exciting blog.
its okay.
it'll change someday.
i'll sure of that.

current mood: TERRIBLE
current song: EVIL ANGEL - BREAKING BENJAMIN