Never had a dream come true. Eh? Like song only. Oh well. I SCREWED UP ON ENGLISH PAPER 2! Bloody fuck! Thanks to China. I hate passages about China or other countries. I swear the next passage if its China, I'll kill myself!

Im sorry to say this but I dont know why but I might be missing that particular person. I miss him like damn SHIT! I could smell him. GEEZ! Slap me till Im awake, someone. Please dont tell that idiot.

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

GOSH! DAD! I aint waking up for some breakfast [sahur or saur {however you called it}]! Im not fasting ANYWAY! Well, you dont know that so I cant blame you. But please you and I have our differences. I might be havoc but I still listens to you but do you? OKOK. Let me see. You've been avoiding me since that day that I didnt answer your phone call. Gah! You're always trying to find fault with me again dont you? You might as well say that you hate me. Its like I always wish that you aint my dad. I wanna give you a piece of my mind but Im just afraid to see you disappointed. Whatever it is, you've never cared. I was there when you gave me that talk and I bloody cried my lungs out but you dont take any notice. I was so fucking worried when the ambulance took you away [thats why you guys, never should've taken up smoking in the first place or you'll end up like him] and you didnt take notice. So what am I to you? Your daughter, your friend or for a useless wall? Look what you've made me do! Im listening to Remembering Sunday on repeat. I know Im giving you forlon hope but I swear to you. You wont be disappointed in me. But I will always be disappointed in myself.

I still remember the day when I hurt myself because of you. On 27 August 2008. That day was Mum's birthday and you've ruined it for her and I. I was also called up by a damn KPO teacher and eventually lied to her. And till now, she is always having her eyes on me. Picking me, bullying me [nonsense XD]. Putting up a smile in front of friends isnt easy. I just want one you to accept me for who the fuck I am. Can you? OH WAIT! CORRECTIONS! We didnt talk since that day, actually. The only thing we did is, you send me to school, fetched me from tution and watched tv in the living room without talking to anyone. Even during dinner, you never talk to me and so did I. GEEZ! Why am I blabbering about this when I did talked about it before. Well, some things cant let it rest in peace, I guess so.

Current mood: Happy?
Current song: Remembering Sunday - All Time Low