Just cried myself a river. I totally swear my eyes, they're totally red and puffy. And this few days, my tantrum suck. Sarcasm everyday to Mum [I'm sorry], siblings, cousins, ex-colleague and mostly strangers. I can't control my anger anymore. Usually, this happens when I'm pissed, sad and FEELING VERY INSECURE!
So, I think this is what I'm gonna do.
1) Stay really away from the computer for countless days.
2) Drown myself with BF's SPARK, or maybe not.
3) Lock myself in the room.
4) Watch Twilight, from The Saga to Eclipse over and over.
5) Cancel number 2, drown myself with Mum's cough syrup and coke. [Better idea]
6) Chill by the beach.
I'M SO STRESS
OMG! I fucking wish I'll die now. I don't care. I don't believe in Illuminati and I don't know whether I should believe in God?
Quote from my beloved Minah cousin, "Kecil kecil tak nak mampus, da besar menyusahkan [I don't know whether this is the correct spelling] orang". So if I translate that, it would be "When you're younger, you don't wanna die, when you're older, you're troublesome?"
I think I want an advance present from Mom and Dad. Even though my birthday is 3 months away. I just need to start a fresh.
Send me to live with Auntie Emma in Australia and I don't want to come back here. Please. Thanks.
