I really need to get rid of the feeling. Tell myself that I'm totally with a guy. And my heart should only be meant for one. But it's distracting when the second person keeps coming back. After he ended his relationship. I'm trying to make mine work. But with his appearance, it's hard. Cause frankily speaking, I love him more than I mine man.

I'm a total dick head for doing that. But if he would just stay out of my life, I might turn the love around. It's a dilemma he is putting me in.

I don't know whether it's called cheating. But my Doll doesn't really need to know right? I mean I also need a space for my secrets. But I don't call myself a cheater cause there wasn't any mush mushy going on. Well, I don't know. Judge me if you really want too. It's not me either.

I somehow change when he hooked up with a girl. But after he broke up with her. I don't know why, but I'm trying to win him back. Maybe we're twins in our past life. I don't know. I knew him for a whole three years already. We fought, joked, and everything together. I don't know.

Maybe I should keep my life simple. Stay faithful with the one I'm with now. And just be friends with the one I'm not. I lead a happy life, let's not destroy it.